Saturday, May 5, 2012

You know, I haven’t blogged in a while, but that’s due to focus on other things, and me just not posting my blogs. I probably have about three blogs I’ve written over the last six months, but I haven’t posted them. I need to blog more. Anyway, I did want to write about my relationship with Guy. We are heading into our 8th month and getting super excited about moving in together. Yes, we are moving in together. After my disastrous relationship with Joe I honestly didn’t think I’d ever do that again. The thought of there being a man who can sacrifice and give me what I want and vice verse seemed unrealistic. Getting married seemed unrealistic. Having kids and house…psst! Dreams! Now it seems as those dreams are coming into reality (with the exception of kids, I think I can scratch that one off my list. Thanks Dana!). Without trying I found myself in a relationship with a wonderful man, the kind other people tell you about, but you never really believe you’d actually date one. I never dreamt that I would be the one sitting on the couch while he makes dinner. I never thought he’d be the one picking up the tab. Mostly, I never thought I’d want to call someone who wasn’t James Franco or Ryan Gosling (Matt Damon’s out of the picture because he’s married) my husband. But here we are…eight months later I’m saving up money, looking at apartments, and trying to get my shit together so we can move in. Suddenly it’s “we” and not “me.” It’s “us” and not “I’m.” He’s met the family; I’ve met some of his friends. I agreed to live with his cats although I’m allergic. I put up with his smoking because I love him. I go fishing; I rode on his motorcycle, hell I even shot a gun because it’s what he loves. Who have I become? The crazy thing is that I did all these things just to be with him and I enjoyed them. I would have never done any of those things if he hadn’t suggested. I’m not saying I love guns or smoking (which I certainly don’t), but I love to make him happy and that makes me happy. It’s not to say he hasn’t opened up for me. He’s gone out and seen the Harry Potter movie with me. We saw the Twilight film together. He even endured “Ides of March” and he HATES politics. Sometimes he’s just going to have to watch “Dancing with the Stars” and House Hunters. But the biggest give and take has been him driving for two hours just to see me for less than 24 hours some times. We live over 200 miles away from each other and he comes to see me every time and never complains. He’s better than me because I couldn’t handle it (lol). Best yet our sex is awesome. I can’t believe I have what I have. When we’re together, shopping, building our lives together, everything feels natural. My future is with him. I see us old and gray (he’s halfway there lol) and I see us young and happy. I look forward to building a life with him and that is what makes my days so wonderful. After wedding through the bullshit I actually found that man that has made me a believer that there is something good out there.